I Am back

Hi,
    Yall I just wanted to come by my old blog and get caught up and mention a few things.
So I Had my daughter on Feb 3, 2014 she was 8.6 lbs and she was a great bundle of joy.
 Can I just say that the moment I saw her I thought that I was going to cry but I didn't I think I was just so over welmed  that it didn't hit me till the next day that she was really mine and that I actually had it happen to me I waited for this for so long that I didn't realize that it actually happened till I stopped and starred at her and held her close.

 I was in labor for 25 hrs and I also got induced yes she was being very stubborn lol but she was coming weather she liked it or not lol. I am very happy have been given this opportunity to be her mother and that she is here.

 She is now 8 months almost 9 she is 24.5 lbs and is very healthy and a very happy little girl. I just have to say to those who have pcos please please please don't give up. There are so many options out there for you to try. Let me just say once more that this journey has not been a easy one for me either and I was officially going to give up when I turned 30 but I found a doctor that could help me and talk me through it and I am very appreciative of her and love that she has given me hope.. I also have a cousin who has pcos but she did everything that doctors asked her like eating right and exercising and staying healthy she was trying for 10 years and she found a doctor who would help along the way.

With me I found a doctor that gave me clomid and had me come in 2 weeks after to check if I ovulated by drawing my blood and my cousin had to have the doctor give her shots in her ovaries and have her come back and get checked to see if she has a healthy egg so she could do the baby dance and see if it worked and 1 month later she found out that she was pregnant.

so there you have it  2 different stories and 2 different ways we achieved our fertility journey.

I hope that my story helps someone never give up and never see that there is a end when it comes to pcos.

Thanks
      Misty

comments, questions, I might have an answer

Hi,
  I just wanted to say that everyday that I get on here I check to see if any one has viewed my blogs and if they have left any comments. surely none have yet to comment or add which is ok cause even if you are just reading away and my info may help you I have done my job. My main reason for doing this is cause I wanted to share my success story in hopes of bringing hope to others that are also struggling. Because I know that while I was in my doubts and sad and thought that it would never happen I would definitely turn to google in search of success stories and know that it just still might happen for me. no matter how hard your situation no matter how different it is there is always hope even if you end up having to try non naturally or having to try with ivf or clomid or if it doesn't work at all your final option I would say would be adoption. But know that you are not alone and know that there are those that are willing to help that are just like you and many many more others out there that may not know.

So if there is any way I can help or just give u just that much more hope please please please by all means ask me , comment me, add me and ill try my best to give u what you need my life has always been about helping others and if I know I have helped at least one person I am very satisfied.

Thanks again for reading and I hope and pray that every one gets what they hope for most in life

Mahalo,
   hokulani

first view at my blessing

Hi ,
  So here is my first ultra sound that I got on the 24 june and I that day was a big shocker to me and it has made me a totally different believer in the PCOS and not being able to to get pregnant. I am currently a strong believer now more then ever that our lord and savior has blessed me for a reason due to all the many situations that I have been through in my life with and without my husband. I truly believe that if you want it enough you can make it happen and I know that some of you may be saying I have done a lot and nothing yet but if it happens it will happen and one main key I would say is that you should have a great doctor so if you don't think that your doctor is helping you any try to find someone els.

Any ways let me tell you what is going on I currently and 12 weeks and 4 days I have currently no nausea which can I say is truly lovely I am so happy to say that I also have more energy but I have done nothing really different lately only thing I did today was that I made brownies today hahaha which I enjoyed very much eating heheh.

I am still not showing and I look further along then I really am but its just fat ugh.. I can't wait till I do start showing that is something I am excited for cause ill rub my belly and actually feel something I know kind of weird lol. 

But now to the things that may mean more to some of you then this hehe. I would like to state that in a lot of cases of having PCOS peoples situations are very different . when I first started trying I didn't know what to do and how to handle it but I came around and started to try and find solutions through trial and error I eventually found something and I know others can to. I was once one of those ladies that searched and searched in books and google all my info and found others that had success but also found others that have had there struggles. I just like to say that you will have your chance and if you have congratulations.

I'd just like to end with I hope that all of you who are trying have faith and do what you can to get what you want but you don't always have to lose weight cause as of now I currently weigh 256 and I was 251 when I got pregnant I truly believe it has to do with your doctor and them knowing what they are doing.


Good luck to all of you beautiful PCOS ladies

Hokulani

The update

Sorry this is really late one but I'm doing it right  but I just wanted to do the update before my night ended but as of today I be came 12 weeks and I still fee like I did when I was 6-8weeks but kind of mellowed  out  8 still get nauseated throughout the whole day and I have bad indigestion and  sometimes heart burn I Take 2 tums every now and then hear it is ok and tht it also a good source of calcium but also for ma nausea I take a pill prescribed by my obgyn and it seems to work well for me I like it when I can eat things and not worry about it making me feel nauseated afterwards.  But I have  also constipation and it comes  and goes but I take a prescribed med for tht also from my obgyn.  Also with me still having PCOS I still take my metformin but my doctor told me I could keep taking it or stop and she hasn't called me about my blood work which usually means that everything came back normal or at least good.  But other then that I am still a little drowsy when the late afternoon hits but I can't really sleep but at night it seems to be fine.  But um other then that my 2nd doctors appointment is going to be in a week fro.  Monday and then I will be 13 wks and 2days so I am super excited and can't wait till all my negatives (sickness)  goes away so I can really start enjoying this miracle.

Till next time,
       Hokulani

How it started and ended putting my PCOS in check

Good morning/good afternoon well as promised I will explain how I came to be pregnant and the journey I went on to get there. So I know there are alot of women/girls that out there in this world who may have been or currently still trying and let me tell you I know what you are going through. I struggled for many years asking the lord how come and what do I do's.

I found out that I had PCOS ugh!!! I hate that thing once I found out I became very depressed and unhappy with life. So I became very inclosed with my life and who I was but luckily that I had family/friends who I love dearly there for me and I was once again myself. Took me a while but I got there but the main reason why I became so depressed and unhappy was due to the relationship that I was in with my boyfriend at the time (now husband) for about 3yrs then we were trying to have a child and when I found out that I had IT! the doc told me that it was going to be really hard for me to conceive.

Well I really wanted a child. And what had made it worse for me was that my girls whom I have been friends with currently for 10 yrs were all having children and then I fell back into depression mode and started drink,drugs and parting. And let me tell you that was nothing I was really planning on doing with my life but it happened and then to make things even more difficult I found out that my boyfriend at the time was going to be moving to new zealand. :'( I was sad for days but then he asked me to go with him and I thought and considered it and finally decided to go. so I was in NZ for 6 moths and during those months we were still trying to conceive and of course nothing and I at that time me and him were together for close to 4 yrs and I hadn't seen a doctor for a while I wasn't on anything to help me either so I guess I just thought it would of just happened for us but god had a different plan.

And I am very grateful that he didn't allow me to become with-child cause I ended up moving back to the U.S due to a situation we were going through. so that was when I found out that my boyfriend at the time cheated on me. So then I was even more grateful that it never happened. So I and he went our own ways for about a year then we got to talking again and in 2008 he ended up moving back to the U.S and moved in with me.

We then got married 3 months later and then we knew we definitely  wanted a child so in 2008 I went to a doc and they prescribed me birth control and told me that it would help me after a year so i took it for a year and that crap did nothing so that was a waste of time . I then started a job at copper hills youth center in 2009 and found other people within that job that had IT! also and I was shocked and one of them were pregnant she told me in's and out's and a specialty doctor. so I went to the doctor and they prescribed me METFORMIN   and told me to start eating healthy so I took the meds and and tried key word tried eating healthy and of course my stubborn self couldn't do it.

I ended up just taking the meds and let me tell you that med messed up my stomach but I stayed on it for 6 months and it started working and for some reason I stopped taking it thinking that I didn't need it any more I don't know why but I did and then I fell right back into the same position I was in 6 months prior. I still never became pregnant but I struggled from then on trying to get into shape trying to conceive and from 2009 till about 2011 I tried and tried only with METFORMIN and 2012 was when I found out about a med called CLOMID!! and when I did I was scared to try it so I tried to at one point through out that year find alternatives which were natural ways to help my PCOS! and I found out about vitex, saw palmento and others took those for a year with out taking METFORMIN and those did nothing for me so I went back on the prescribed meds and talked to my OBGYN .

Ok let me tell you something kind of off topic  but when I found out about the specialist doctor in 2009 I was excited and I had that doctor for a year but he did nothing for me and I stopped going then I found a OBGYN in 2011 that was close by and that knew about PCOS and who was the one that told me about clomid she helped me with my METFORMIN and things I should be doing and I had her for about 1yr 1/2 and she was great if you are in utah her name was tina fought but then she transferred out of the company that I loved and I didn't want to lose her but also where she had moved to was really far so before I switched I tried another female OBGYN that was with the company that I loved and her name it lynn atwood I was scared but also hopeful and when I had my first appointment with her she was very welcoming and understood what I had and told me that she had lots of patients that had much success with CLOMID so that made me really excited and this was the middle of 2012. And that is how I started my process with Clomid.

Back on track my OBGYN gave me a new prescription for METFORMIN and CLOMID I started that in november or december of 2012 and stayed on till about may and on June 12 , 2013 I found out that I was pregnant... YEAYEEEEE!!!!!

when I found out I was extreamly excited  and I didn't know what to do with myself I couldn't think and I definitely didn't know how to tell my husband due to the fact that I always told myself I'm going to tell him in a cute way if I ever became pregnant but nope never did. but he is extremely excited also. my baby is due january 25, 2013.

later I will post my ultrasound picture and talk about my experience's and symptoms and the things my doctor helped me out with. If there is something any one would like me to talk about please feel free to ask me.

Till next time,
 Hokulani

Good morning :)

HI,

I have been up since 10 this morning but I just wanted to say good morning and let you guys know that later today I will be posting about how my PCOS has worked for me and what I have done and how I came to be pregnant and the things I did and didn't do. I will list many things I have struggled with and then I will also be doing a pregnancy update.

Until later,
 Hokulani

MY Journey never ended

Hi, 

 I just would like to start off by saying that I have always had a knack for starting things and never continuing them . But I am back in action and with lots to say and talk about!! 

So where to start I have recently just quit my job of 6 months more like a personal leave of absence and for a very good reason I must say. But not to get to far ahead of my self let me start out by starting from where i left off... FEB 2012 practically a year and a half ago.

So I never found a job until a month after I had stopped blogging which was in march of 2012,

I was so excited to get my life back into order and  be able to move out and live my life with just me and my husband YEAYEEE!! Finally I was excited and anxious at the same time and didn't know what to do with all of it but as usual my life had a different direction for me. I was employed at Deseret Industries for about a year until they had helped me find my current job I just left. back on track within that year alot had happened to me to my family and I just didn't know what to do with all my emotions and didn't know how to take in all the things that have happened to me. 

My husband after trying for so long finally got into the job that he was wanting for a very long time since he was able to work. He became employed as an accessory shop worker for Sky West Airlines!!

Oh my can I just tell you once I found out he got the job I was extremely excited I was like finally we are moving forward in our lives and getting somewhere I got my job and he got a better paying job. So moving out was definitely going to be our next move in life.

But instead our heavenly father had a different direction for us again. 

We ended up not moving out and still haven't but after him getting employed last august we just payed bills and lived like we could and then to my surprise  I thought that we were or at least I was going to be bringing in 2013 with a bang but turned out that a person whom I thought was family and another person whom I thought was a bff or at least a close friend became enemies and disowned really quick.

I have always been the type of girl who would make friends and keep them and then only have a fist full of bff's but when I came across a girl that became a bestie per say my life changed even more then I wanted it to we started being friends around I think like 2010 no issues till I introduced her to my at the time sister but really was a sister in law but we were so close that we were practically sisters. I had introduced them and then one day there were making conversation about things I have told one but not the other but honestly till this day I still believe that I was not talking bad I was just venting. Any way  then from then on me and my at the time sister just completely stopped talking.

And as of now we no longer say anything to one another I just get ugly looks from her when she see's me but that is also due to other circumstances that occurred between my ex sister in law (which was her biological sister) and my brother. but after that we ended up making up and started talking again and became close again and again I figured I could say something with out being put on a pedestal  by her so one night I told her sister in law just to look out for this dance teacher that she was being taught by because she was drama and had drama causing issues and word got out which I didn't mind but some how word got back to my so called bff and she decided wtf I how could she, why would she say those things.. and believed every word a lady she barely knew instead of confiding in me and asking me what I said and what happed so again we had drama again and omg was I done and annoyed but I decided that I should go and talk to the girl like 2 months later and apologize and see what happens again and go from there . Ok I know this was a long story but i had to tell it to get to the bringing in the 2013 Yeayeee! not really.

So between Aug-Dec we were having like some kind of stupid issues between me, her and this other girl whom I became real close with and I love her to death she is one of the most kind hearted and loving people I have ever met. sorry any way we were going through things and only with her was it bad she would get mad at the littlest things and become jealous and not talk to me for a few days then call me and say I need to talk to you I was getting super sick of it cause one I was being me and she wasn't liking it and 2 this would be the third time with in 2 stinking years that there was yet drama between me and her. So come Jan I  was done cause I had sometime last year 2012 had introduced my cousin to her and she was part of the reason we were having drama again. And I was like great another issue involving a third person. so in the months of Jan-Mar me and my cousin were of and on arguing and then make up and finally all our arguing turned into a fist fight  which is totally dumb but all because I let other people control my life and that girl was but also I was not happy with my cousin still being friends with my ex friend/enemy so all of that led to me completely cutting her out of my life and disowning my cousin.

And as of now me and that girl will never be friends again and my cousin is no longer a cousin and year that is what ended up bringing in my new 2013 yr yeayee me lol. but finally in the month of april all that drama finally started settling down cause my cousin had moved back out of salt lake. And I never heard anything every again. SUPER STOKED!!!! omg.

And then I was offically able to move on with my life one good thing happened in january though the company I was nearly working for a year for helped me find another job a good paying one and I started in january of 2013 and then me and my husband in Feb started looking for a home. We had found two but bid on them and did not get chosen and I knew something else was in store for our lives and in april we had had a big issue that could of lead my husband to be put in jail. And out of a job so I knew then why we didn't get the homes we wanted.

But something good had come out of that issue and it was me and him changing our lives around drastically like a complete 360 degrees we both decided to stop drinking and I started going back to church (have currently been back since may and still attending and i love it) and we started praying more and I must say each and every day my testimony grows and grows and my faith in prayer gets stronger and stronger I am completely happy with where my life is now and I love it.

I know this has been a long one but I wanted to a lil catch up if you say. but also one thing I don't know if any of you have read my other blog but its all about my PCOS ( polycycstic ovarian syndrom) but I have been trying to have a baby for 8+ yrs now and due to my PCOS it has been really hard to conceive and any one with PCOS would know. but I am happy to announce that we are finally having a baby YEAYEEE!!! so I will be blogging about that journey in my other blog. 

I am exreamly excited for this new relieved journey ahead of me and can't wait to share it with you all.

Thanks for reading xoxo

     Hokulani